Mom confession: I am attached to my baby.
I’m sure many parents can relate to this. I just figured it would get easier to leave him after the first month. However, it seems to be the complete opposite. I’m more attached than ever.
It is to the point where I don’t want to lay him down for naps, because that would mean I won’t be with him. For the first two months, I allowed him to take naps on my chest. I could never get anything done, but I enjoyed his cuddles too much to care. Sorry hubs! We have now transitioned to naps throughout the day and while it’s nice to get stuff done around the house, I have major separation anxiety after putting him down. Even though he is sound asleep, I fear he still needs me. I lay him down and find myself looking at videos and pictures of him. Bedtime is the absolute worse. My eyes are glued to his monitor. Our room is connected to his nursery and we sleep with that door open…but this isn’t close enough!
Getting out of the house for girls night is torture for me. I always enjoy my time once I’m out, but I constantly have to be checking to see if the hubs needs something. Having my messages go through to my watch is a blessing and a curse. Every vibrate gives me a mini panic attack. I usually open the message to find a cute picture update. My hubs has been encouraging me to get out more, but I still don’t feel ready to leave him for longer than an hour or so.
Does this get easier? I am curious if any of y’all have any suggestions?